Messages from Kayla

I wanted to devote a post just about something that happened to my mother…..On Christmas day, my parents were driving from Chattanooga, where many of my mom’s family live, to Atlanta to see us.  My mother was driving and my father was in the passenger’s seat sound asleep.  When they were near Calhoun, Georgia (north of Atlanta) and driving along the interstate, something caught my mother’s eye on the side of the road; an orange balloon with a long string or ribbon attached to it.  She thought, “Why would a balloon, especially an orange one, be floating on the side of the interstate?”  As she got closer to it, the balloon floated toward her and up and over the car…….Christmas Eve was Kayla’s balloon release.  What were the chances of seeing a balloon, an orange balloon, on the interstate?  Why was it there?  Why did it decide to float over my parents car?  Why was it orange?  If it had been green or red I would have thought it was from a Christmas party.  But, it was orange…….one of the colors of Auburn University, her favorite college……..the color of Kayla’s hair……the color for leukemia.  My mother said, “It was like Kayla was just stopping by to say hello to me.”  I think that Kayla knew how difficult her birthday was going to be on all of us.  And, I believe that was her way of saying, “I saw all of the balloons my family and friends sent to me in Heaven and I loved it!”  Balloons are a sign of happiness.  I believe Kayla used this orange balloon to tell us she is happy and okay…

The second message….a White Christmas!  It has been over 100 years since it has snowed in Atlanta.  Why did it snow on this Christmas day?  I have talked to Ava’s mother and we agree that our girls, Kathi’s daughter Jessi included, who all passed away this year due to complications from cancer, blessed us with a white Christmas.  Thank you Kayla, Jessi and Ava for our Christmas gift.


About MomMinus1

Welcome to my blog, momminus1 (mom minus one). I am a mother of three beautiful girls, Kayla 17, Allison 13 and Ashley 5. One of my daughters recently became an angel; Kayla passed away on September 22, 2010 due to complications from AML leukemia. She was diagnosed on July 3, 2010. She endured harsh chemotherapy treatments, hair loss, rare and painful skin disorders, horrible stomach infections, weakness, loss of appetite, depression, anxiety and fear. From the time she was diagnosed until the day she died it was just 81 days..... A short, but, horrific battle with cancer. I am always asked, "How are you doing? What can I do for you? How are your two girls doing?" At times, these are tough questions to answer. And, I express myself best when I write. Writing is so helpful and therapeutic for me. Maybe I can answer these questions for those that are concerned about us. Maybe I can help another mom that might wake up tomorrow and find out that their child is diagnosed with cancer. Maybe there is a mom somewhere, like me, that just lost a child to cancer and is searching the web for answers. She might be thinking, "Is there anyone out there that understands what I'm going through?" I understand. I am grieving. I am in pain. I have a big piece of my heart that is now gone.....I would love your feedback about my blog, too. Thanks for reading!
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4 Responses to Messages from Kayla

  1. judy says:

    i believe it waqs one of our balloons that kayla used to say hello. she knew how much we love her and she used the balloon. we will never forget her and her beautiful smile. kayla we love you…aunt judy

  2. sybil says:

    I am sure that was one of our balloons ,Kayla was telling us she was watching and she loved it! We miss her and know that Granny is taking care of her. I bet they are playing Scrabble and drinking hot tea. Aunt Sybil

    • sybil says:

      I am sure that was one of our balloons Charlotte saw ,Kayla was telling us she loved it! We miss her and know Granny is taking care of her. I bet they are playing Scrabble and drinking cocoa, and watching us enjoy the Christmas snow.
      Love you,
      Aunt Sybil

  3. Janell Sponburgh says:

    Amber that is a wonderful gift that your Mom received seeing that orange balloon. I know out of all the Christmas gifts that you and your Mom received that was the most special!!!!

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